Today I am in love with life

Growing up is hard. Suddenly having to face reality and fend for yourself. You start to see the ugliness in the world that you didn't about as a child. You get your heart shattered and think that you will never be happy again. Your relationships with people change and sometimes fall apart. You feel lost and out of place and don't know who you are.

It's so easy to let the world consume you with all of this negativity. I have let it do it to me plenty of times. But today I am in love with life.

The whole growing up and facing reality thing did not go so well for me when I first started college and I lost myself and lost my friends. Recently I decided to take a step back and look at my life as a whole from the outside. Something I realized that bothered me was the broken relationships I had with people that used to be so important to me. The people who used to lift me up and help me be my best self.

Luckily I have been able to fix these friendships which is such a blessing to me. How people come back. How they go away because it has to happen. But they come back.

This morning I was meditating while reflecting on myself and these were the things that I was thinking about. As these thoughts were flooding my mind I started to cry at how beautifully everything has been falling into place lately. At how all those horrible and sad things happened for a reason so that I could be here today as the best version of myself.

But one person that I was specifically thinking about was my high school bestie Chloe. We've gone through so much the past 3-4 years and there was a low point in our relationship where I thought that I would never see or speak to her again. Luckily, we've been able to reconnect as friends and recognize what happened with our friendship and learn from it and become friends again.

So I immediately texted

her after my meditation because I wanted her to know that I couldn't be more thankful for her and our friendship.

And bless her soul, I wasn't expecting this at all but this amazing beautiful person told me that she had a secret. And the secret was that she ordered me jewelry and a dress to be a bridesmaid in her wedding!! Chloe has always loved planning her wedding and always said I would be in it. So it was sad for both of us to think about that not being the case.

SOO, I am glad I finally had the realization that I needed to put my pride aside and fix the relationships I ruined when I was lost and didn't know who I was. The people you love and the people that love you are the most important things in life. When you have people who bring out the very best in you just by being there and loving you, that is so magical and totally worth it.

Go out and love your people and your life today!!:)